I haven’t posted in a while because I’ve felt a little disconnected. I’ve often heard of the idea that there is no good and bad, just closeness to Source. The closer you are to Source, the easier life becomes. I think the struggles we’ve been dealing with have caused me to drift a little from Source so I’m making a conscious effort to find my way back. Wayne Dyer spoke in one of his books (Power of Intention?) of imagining life as being a streetcar moving along and being too short to reach the passenger handles up by the ceiling. He talked of just floating up to grab one of the handles and being carried along. I keep trying to solidify this image in my head, I don’t need to drive the train, I just need to get on and trust the driver.
My sister also gave me a powerful visualization that I intend to adopt. She told me she imagines putting all her struggles in a backpack and handing it up to her angels. She imagines them with a big empty table where they dump all her struggles out and then she just asks them to “sort it all out”. Once she’s done that, she tries to just let go and trust that her angels will work everything out. I really like that.
I read “Eat Pray Love” by Elizabeth Gilbert with my book club last month.
It was interesting at the book club discussion. Most everyone disliked the book but I disagreed. They thought Gilbert was whiny and self-involved. They felt like her problems were no different from everyone else’s and that she should stop complaining and “get over it”. It’s so funny because while I understand where they were coming from, I didn’t feel that while I read it at all. I found the book honest and unashamed. Gilbert chronicled her experience with depression without hiding the less palatable parts. I feel like part of the reason that so many people are struggling with depression in this day and age is that everyone is denying what they’re really going through. Because no one is admitting to being unable to handle things, everyone thinks they’re all alone in their struggle. I feel like if everyone was a little more honest about how hard things can be sometimes, society would become a more accepting and supportive place and things wouldn’t be so hard because people would know that they’re not alone. I thought that it was smart of Gilbert to take a year and deal with her depression, admit it, accept it and take the steps necessary to get over it. I think that made her extremely brave. A lot of people in her situation post-divorce would tell themselves that they should “suck it up, get some perspective and get over it already”. Then they would push it all down, pretend it was alright and never get better. Good for Elizabeth Gilbert for being honest with herself and owning her feelings.
I’m not sure if you remember but I was supposed to have a full-day meditation back in January. Unfortunately it got cancelled but our instructor has scheduled another one for next weekend. I am excited to see how it goes and if it takes me a significant step forward in my meditation. I will write my thoughts next week.
